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Fri, 05 Jan 2007 08:53:56 GMT

alright new years resolution..
get out there, have fun, take chances, and forget about everyone else and the small things that dont matter. i have to open up more and be the person that i like. be myself always and try to get out the positive. itll be hard hard hard. haha wow

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 04:55:25 GMT

hahahahha i dont know if its because im tired or what but when something good happens i feel like crying

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 22:11:00 GMT

how does it feel to know you were smarter in 8th grade then you are now?

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 23:39:09 GMT

my mind contradicts itself.
i need to take more risks
i need to be free

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 05:46:34 GMT

isnt it weird that water droplets coming out of your EYES of all places signifys sadness?

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 04:31:19 GMT

"so you wanna play dirty hard do you?"
yes, i do.

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 23:06:36 GMT

but then again youve gotten be down to go up

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 06:01:59 GMT

you always gotta go up before you can go down.

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 02:57:01 GMT

okay so i know who i am from an inner perspective.
but i just cant figure out what everyone else sees.

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 05:34:45 GMT

please explain to me the allure of drugs because i honestly dont understand.

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 22:33:47 GMT

i feel like this is some replay of last year in really eerie ways

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 23:38:59 GMT

so i guess after you have an epiphany you get an emotional break down?

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 05:20:17 GMT

this year has been so hard to balance
between the time cheer takes up of my life, stressing out over games, so much work and studying, trying to do community service and joining clubs, trying to keep a social life at the same time without going crazy, along with dance classes and lately jewish services and meals and reading and trying to keep up is exhausting. i actually am ready to sleep every night and i still have things to do. its ridiculous.

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 05:45:29 GMT

its weird how you can be such good friends with someone for so long and then not even be friends with them anymore. okay so my secondary thoughts were nicole richie and paris hilton, but thats not who im talking about. shainna. i was reading old journal entries and i really really miss her. we had so many fun times and everything about 7th grade year i remember was with her. and you know what, i know that friends spread apart and times change, but why do they have to? its our fault isnt it? our own fault that we dont call these people or hang out with them or anything of the sort. but i miss her and i hope she reads this someday to know that i wish we still had what we did in middle school until high school and distance seperated what used to not be able to be seperated. the notes we wrote, the daily phone calls and hurricane harbor, and our lovely neighborhood and boys, and dancing all the time, our smart talks, everything. i miss that girl so much.

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 06:00:28 GMT

honestly, the thing that scares me most about death is what happens, and how no one knows. i get so anxious thinking about it, i feel so scared.

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 22:22:13 GMT

THIS YEAR
name ten things in no particular order that make you happy and tag five others.

1. my friends of coursee
2. cute clothes
3. notes
4. nice people
6. getting things done really early
7. the brady bunch
8. making people laugh
9. writing
10. when people call me weird but still love me anyway :)

LAST YEAR
name ten things in no particular order that make you happy and tag five others.

1. good food.
2. compliments
3. when kolaan and i have our "life" conversations
4. when my eyes look cool. and my bangs work.
6. making new friends.
7. painting/taking pictures
8. listenig to good music.
9. eating pumpkin ice cream and watching zoey 101
10. writing a good story.

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 18:56:36 GMT

i had really weird dreams last night. the first was that i was at cheer and we were practicing, and i guess i had to pee really badly so i couldnt remember the cheers, and i kept saying that wrong, which caused everyone else to do the wrong cheer too. it was pretty funny, but all i remember is having to pee really bad, but anyway, thats not the point, so i go to the bathroom, and all of a sudden i cant see. it was kind of like me without my glasses but 10 times worse, and im just stumbling and can only see through the top half of my eyes, and its such an effort for me to find the toilet and the bathroom, and it hurts so bad and it was the weirdest feeling ever, sort of like when i used to have psycho dreams where i was blind and i couldnt see anything and id just be stumbling around, feeling around but not seeing anything, and knowing i was blind. then i guess it moves on and im going to a civic arts plaza show with my family, but of course although in my dream i know its the civic arts plaza, it really isnt. it looks nothing like it. so im watching this show and im wearing just jeans and a sloppy tee shirt and the people who work there just keep coming around and telling us not to wear jeans becasue the show is too nice. well i guess later on i figure out what this weird show that im watching is. apparently somehow they make everyone under the influence of lsd, and we're all high and the whole show is a hallucination.

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 02:59:35 GMT

i think ive realized how although i really used to pride myself in being not really shallow and unstereotypical, i kind of was. thats sort of why i joined cheer. i wanted to prove to others and myself that i could break stereotypes, i wanted to know the inside of all these people and what they are doing. i wanted to prove to them that i could be someone they never saw as one become one. i somehow always have the need to prove myself to people. i need to prove to my own self that i mean things by writing them down. i need to prove how i am by my actions and i cant think of any other way to do it.

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 18:24:03 GMT

i couldve been blown up by terrorists on my flight to los angeles from london. cool

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 19:12:01 GMT

better person time. you can't talk behind someoens back, but you can't talk in front of someones back either. i think when i get older ill miss being a teenager and i'll miss all the thinking it makes you do.

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 04:00:45 GMT

i took the color box test daniela just took.

the results were scaryily accurate.

Much of the time you are preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature. You need stimulation and variation with all matters pertaining to your life. You want to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality being able to charm and influence others. You use powerful strategies with predictable outcomes so as to avoid endangering your chances of success or undermining other people's confidence in you.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

You know what you want and you are very dogmatic and demanding - especially in your emotional demands. You have specific ideas and beliefs and if these beliefs are not realised you can become extremely frustrated. You may not be that perfect but you are looking for perfection with the perfect partner.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 04:08:48 GMT

i want to cry.
its been exactly a year since i went to washington dc.
we came back at 3 in the morning.
it was the funnest 5 days of my life.
and now i really am crying.
i just cant believe its a been a year.
since those 5 days.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 04:52:01 GMT

Haha I get all the inside sources.
Truth is, none of you really like each other.
Well, Not the way you show it.
It makes me wonder who really likes me and who doesn't.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 00:05:54 GMT

hahahaha high school musical has taken over the world
#1 on itunes

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 04:24:13 GMT

everyone is so critical of what i do, even if it isnt bad. why cant you just let me be. sdklfjsdklfj.